flamenco guitar listening

flamenco guitar listening

Is there a way I can fit in better with black people?

I am an albino black woman. I have African features in my face and an “hourglass” figure. But my skin is white and my hair is a sandy blondish brown. Furthermore, I feel like a nerd. I rarely use slang in my speech, and I love to read, write, and I love arts and crafts and creating music. My favorite instrument is the guitar, and I love to play on it. I don’t like rap music that much; I prefer listening to classical music, oldies, R&B, alternative, world music, and I LOVE Flamenco music. As a result, I don’t feel like a real black person. I can’t seem to fit in with black people my age because of my color, my way of speaking, and the activities I like to do. Is there a way I can fit better with black people and “feel” more black?

feals presumptuouse to answere-being i am not black.
But isn’t this a question of culture not color?
Seek people with your basic likes and dislikes and enjoy life. Why dose color matter?
I understand the fealing of being left out ,because you precieve yourself as black but have “too lite” of color.
I recall the first time (our area is very hateful of blacks historically, so they are rare here) I saw an ebony black man on the streets. I just stood with my stupid mouth hangling open and staired in estonishment. He was glorious! Tall and fine! And black as ebony stone. I wanted to reach out and touch his skin to see how it fealt. Just could not controle my reaction at all!
Reminds me of children in black areas who see a white man for the first time. They just have to giggle and touch.
It is not the color that makes the man, but the color is an added interest. Realy if I got to know him would I expect him to love rap, and talk in slang, and eat certain foods, and ware certain clothes? Not at all. I wanted to know him because he had a way of walking and holding him self and forgiveing my stupiditiy and accepting his diference in this society. I wondered how he saw us?
So stand tall and proud and enjoy who you are and be kind to others. Who cares what color you are? Only a very stifeled individual would.
If you feal culturaly closer to the black people they will accept you as black. If you realy want to spend time with those with the same interests and values as you why shut yourself off by color or racial differences?
Another time I was over hearing a conversation on the bus in which one black woman was distressed by white freckeled spots on her face and arms. She and another black woman were considering it a disease. i had to stick my nose in. My white with red freckles nose. My Irish briliant blue eyes and red ish hair and white skin with red blotches… Get it? I said I knew what she meant. As a child I had so many freckles you couldn’t see my face at all. But as I got older I got used to them and they seemed to lessen in intensity. Actually it is a mattter of getting to know who you are inside.
I showed her my arm next to hers and said “freckles are universal” Yours are just white on brown and mine are brown on white. I am a pinto horse you know.
Live long and prosper.

Waves of the Danube (Easy Listening Solo Guitar by René Sahir)